Sometimes you should read things twice before decide what to do with it, before you pass on the things.
On one late night, -I don't know why- suddenly I feel that I really want to read some fan fictions again. The fan fiction that I happened want to re-read again called, "Fortuitous Serendipity". Yes, I know what kind fan fiction is that. Lol. Some of you probably has read the story too, if you're KPOP fans. I'm usually not a big fan of this genre, but I should say that the story left something inside my heart.
This author has a quite deep thought despite the genre they wrote. No, I'm not judging anything, but usually fan fiction; high school love, and everything happen in the plot, never involves with deep thought, does it? I don't know. But with some fan fictions I read that happen to have almost the same genre do it which makes me want to close those stories and go to another one. Lol.
What I like about the story is how the storyline really suit the title. An accidental discovery after all the big-mess-event happened. Things happened. It was high school. You were just young, confused, and sometimes crazy. That was the time when you did things without any fear of what people would think about you. You laugh, love, and cry nonsensically and you thought it was make sense in your logic. But, some years later, when you think about the time, you'll chuckle at the ridiculous things you did before but yet still missing it so much. Like beautiful memories. People always in love with memories.
Graduation song, graduation story; those things always make me feel sentimental. It makes me missing those times when I'm in high school, the times when I did all kind craziest things in my book. Lol. Don't think 'what kind crazy things you did'. I'm a good girl when I'm in high school, not a rebel at all, which is made me somewhat regret that I didn't go crazier when I'm in that age.
Sometimes I really want to turn back into that time and feel again. Create more memories. But life must go on. You cannot stuck on one period only. :P
Here I want to share a quote from the story that stuck inside my mind from the first time I read the story.
...we are all going to leave having learned a lot of things. But then I realized it's not just high school. We all learn--constantly in life. And here's what I learned the most this year: we're looking for something. There's those who look for people, there's those who look for signs. Some look for things that are missing and in our cases, some look for good universities. While others... others look for answers to difficult questions. Others search for reason the change. Some for courage to do things they fear, and some... some search for love, or acceptance, or recognition. Some even find things they didn't even know they were looking for -- accidental discovery.A good friend of mine calls it fortuitous serendipity. If you get lucky, you might find what you're looking for. But not everyone does. Maybe it's not yet the time, or maybe it's not meant to be.Most of the time, the reason why you can't find what you're looking for is because you're looking at the wrong direction. You're looking too far away. You fail to realize that what you're looking for, it's already right in front of you.We're always going to be looking for something, and we're not always going to find what we're looking for. And that's okay. But we must never forget that sometimes, you're only left with now. And if now is only this graduation then two hours is all you get and all that happens after will be entirely dependent on the choice you make.
Am I too late to feel something like this? Sometimes I'm really late on grasping the present feeling. When the event already pass, I'm just starting want to feel it. Am I the only one who ever experience this all the time? I feel like first timer in the life *and so does everyone*, do anything just as it's passing by only and thought I can turn back to experience it. Like a game play, but reality don't work like that, right? Trust me, I really want to plan my life ahead, but every time I do, it always successfully makes me got headaches and bad mood because I don't know what to do.
By the way, this is my third time read the story. Lol. I just like the characters. It intrigued me in someway. Despite the rated scene that weird me out sometimes, *I told you. I'm not a big fan of this kind genre*, and also some illogical things like:
1. They are living in Korea, South Korea. There's no way people would be so much open mind about things like that. *this is fan fiction. You don't need those dramas over a fan fiction, Daisy.*
2. The school feels like American not Korean normal school. Maybe it's an international school based on US school.
3. I don't know is there any valedictorian and salutatorian speech on graduation ceremony in Korea? Hmmh? Maybe there is. But I love that part the most. When Jaebum concluded everything happened in past months into a beautiful speech that I quote above.
There are many more on the list that I don't really want to talk about because I'm not reviewing the story. I supposed to quote the speech only here, but suddenly I want to talk about it. Beyond everything that I found weird, the story is somewhat beautiful, smart, and deep. It is also funny especially in graduation ceremony part. Lol.
Currently I'm listening to BTS's member song - Graduation Song. Lol. What a coincidence when I'm about to close the post here.
Anyway, youth will always be a classic theme that makes people go sentimental and nostalgic. Or maybe I'm only too tired of life lately.
